hm... look, you draw good. Being an artist is pretty much like being any other kind of professional. You have to be good on 3 things: on your work (in the art), on promoting your work and on dealing with people (customers, audience, other artists to help you). I can see you don't work much on the promotion of your work. You made this account on late 2020 and has 75 followers, i made my account may this year and i have 64 followers. So apparently you lack on the promotion part and maybe on the dealing with people part too
Thetageist
Huzzah! You've got this!
If you ever get stuck in that mentality, you should figure out what exactly it was about success was making you want to run. Always good to understand and challenge underlying unhealthy mindsets.
InkBastardo
Thank you so much! I think what it might be is that I feel I'm not deserving of it, like you have to be some "Chosen One" or something to be happy or successful, but I'm narrowing it down and working on it. Hearing a "Huzzah! You've got this!" deserves more thanks than i know how to give, but thanks my dood!